I am out of the hospital! Random thoughts and court appointed attorneys?
I am back home from my “authentic” hospital experience and I am kicking myself that I didn’t document my thoughts and time there on video like I did in the retirement community! It’s just an illustration of the difference between a real crisis and a planned immersion exercise.
Perspective and Power
It’s exciting how much relevant perspective I have gained on transitions by combining these two experiences. I really gained more insight on the element of Power from my 8 Ps of making a transition. I am much more aware of how power is transferred in a healthcare setting, which really can leave you scared and helpless more often than I realized.
Court appointed attorney in the hospital?
I have never been assigned a court appointed attorney. I have watched many episodes of the Law & Order television show and read many legal novels over the years that have given me an opinion of what life as a court appointed attorney might be like! I view these professionals as essential to our legal system. However, I feel the system can burden them with an endless pile of cases which can motivate them more to simply reduce the size of the pile as opposed to the vigorous pursuit of justice for every client.
My opinion of court appointed attorneys is very similar to my opinion of doctor(s) that were assigned to my case in the hospital. Whether it’s true or not, my impression as a patient was that I was just one of an endless pile of cases they are challenged with. I am sure they would have liked to do some additional research or consult with colleagues more – but the system doesn’t allow it.
I definitely saw this coming! I had been in and out of the emergency room twice in one day and the infection in my leg continued to spread. I had a feeling that I needed continuous IV antibiotics and would need to be admitted to the hospital, but the last thing I wanted to do was go back to the emergency room to get admitted! My wife and I tried like heck to get an appointment with our family physician to have them admit me to the hospital or refer me to a specialist. Unfortunately, they wouldn’t even see us – they recommended going back to the emergency room.
I learned that our family doctor is the type of doctor that works out of an office and not a hospital. As much as I might question the effectiveness of my “court appointed” doctor – it probably was better or the same as what I would have gotten.
Doctors have most of the power, but the least amount of time!
In the hospital, I only saw a different doctor briefly once a day, and whenever I would ask the other professionals visiting my room about my treatment they would simply say “you need to talk to YOUR doctor”. I finally got a phone number for MY doctor and even though I only called the number twice during my stay and I was extremely polite – it felt like I was being a major inconvenience! Meanwhile I had an infection that continued to spread while receiving IV antibiotics!
After a few days I was finally connected to an infectious disease doctor who changed the prescription cocktail and within hours the infection began to subside. I truly understand the concept of the original treatment plan and the decisions that doctors had to make – I don’t envy their job and respect the monumental decisions they have to make all while navigating a dynamic complex system. However, it doesn’t change the way I feel as a patient!
I definately have a few more blog entries in me on this experience and the feelings and emotions that I went through! I hope that my insights can be helpful in helping you TRY to maintain a positive attitude when you are suddenly in the middle of a healthcare related transition.